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we don’t realize how we treat others until others treat us the same way. it sucks when the one you mentally decide they are meant to be a permanent passenger on this journey. reminding myself that everyone and everything is temporary and that is why we have to enjoy the moments that are given to us. I am 24 yrs old and I don't think I have ever felt more lost in my life until now, what is real? what is the real truth? why are we here? do we all have a purpose or just some of us? these guides we have on life, anxiety, depression, emotional trauma, ect. do they even help? did it help the ones that wrote it? I’ve finally moved out, got my own car, going to school and working, that’s my life right now. when will it change? when will my story begin? when will I feel okay again? I lost my apatite for life, my spark has dimmed through out the years. wondering how I have can get it to light up again? will this internal battle ever end?